Read this only if you are willing to read something really boring.

Last few years went really bad, I know I shared a journal before discussing the problems in a nutshell. I thought this year is going to be better and was looking forward for some good things in my life. But, as days are passing things are getting worse. Now I am in such a situation I can't control every problem at a time. Every time I tried to start a new life I failed and things went worse every time. From last 2 days my days are becoming nightmares, I am so mentally broken. I have 2 important works to do this week, don't know how can I handle those. I don't feel enough confidence, few days ago I was walking carelessly and was almost going to hit by a car, phew. Now I am very afraid of going out with this mental condition.

As I am the only child of my parents, they expect me to have a great career, specially my mom. Now I can't do anything I want, I need to make my mom happy first and need to make myself self-dependent with a good career. Forgetting other stuff of my life and making me busy in building a career has become a tough job for me. Even more tough is to act with a fake smile infront of people. I am trying to keep myself locked in my room for few days until I am able to fight with my emotions.

I haven't uploaded anything lately as I am not able to do anything. I apologize to my fans. I just can't put attention to my works. As I am going to build my career in the art field it is going to be a vital problem. I need to recover myself asap, but things are harder now for me to tackle. Still, trying my best to cope up with every situation.

Allah help me to be strong, solve my problems and bless me with a happy life .